me on tightrope

on my profile under this drawing you'll see a pic from april (me as vampire) with this long optimistic caption. just thought i'd give an update and say that it's 4 months later and none of that shit really worked out. things didn't get super awesome or whatever. it's not "the year of never being crazy." because things have been pretty consistently crazy! i DO like myself more which is good. but the world likes me less. i swear to god, the circumstances surrounding me have all been (at the same time) starting to get extremely shitty. the world clearly is trying to get me to kill myself. like i'm a virus it's antibodies are trying to wipe out. (gods tryna do a psy-op on me!!) everything with my job, family, friends, car accidents, random people on the street... has become super fucking shitty! idk man shits just stressful. im kinda fine with myself, so its not like its fucking with me toooo hard. imma get through it. but for right now its just a lot of work. but sometimes its good to just do the work. i know how to be happy. so i'll be good. makin more music too. here's a picture of me on a tightrope