me as vampire

the year of never being crazy starts...now! so, it might sound lame and all, but it's really important to be ok with yourself. (now, i won't say "love yourself" because i'm not there just yet, but i should try!) beavers wouldn't be able to build dams if they hated their goofy teeth, and coffee machines wouldn't be able to make coffee if they hated... being coffee machines! "personally, i'm a big fan of both," i say aloud as i sip coffee and admire beavers! a beaver who hates being a beaver can't be good at being a beaver! and a human who hates himself can't be...himself. if you let it get as bad as i did a little bit ago, you implode. you start acting bananas and making sad faces. you start making unfair assumptions about the people around you, and you start to hurt people's feelings. you stop working as a human, which means you stop loving. love is trust and love is respect. it's not just "i like having you around," ya big goofball! you gotta respect people and their opionions when they say they're a big fan of you, and you gotta trust that they love you when they say they do. beavers build dams with their goofy teeth, and humans love with their goofy bodies and souls. love is a humans purpose, which is awesome. because once you stop being crazy for a minute you realize how easy it is. i'm glad our purpose isn't something difficult like being amazing at jenga. (right?) you dont have to be the coolest or hottest boi around, because everyone loves wormies and they aren't coolest or hottest! know what ur about and everyone else will too. for example, i thought of some nice things about myself: i'm angular yet doughy, like pizza. i'm funny yet smelly, like a fart. (farts aren't negative,, so don't take it that way.) anyway, tomorrows my birthday so im excited. in my past year covid went bananas, a bunch of old people in my family died, i got a tooth infection/root canal, got covid, developed slight body dysmorphia for a minute, and just got strep throat. lots of pain lots of pain, but i was always pretty happy even with all that. so my 21st year is gonna be even better! lets all have fun!